cos of my screwed sleeping hours the past few days... i woke up at 11... wah lau the head really spinning siah.

went to meet andrew at bugis... got back my s bo and helmet from desmond. so sweet ah he helped to wash my helmet which i didn;'t do to his i am so guily... yah right.

so yeah! one less thing to wash hahah.... and i went back to college for a run with ivor, alvin and andrew. this yr track got some promising yr1 pip. got 2 very fast long d runners which definitely willl be able to make the mark if they train hard enough now. and then thr is this NYGS gal who claims she was 2nd last yr. k i will say she got the technique for high jump lah but still can't believe she is 2nd cos she shd be at some whr else u know wat i mean.

wow ivor did some pep talk at the end of training... has been a long time since i hear him say such stuff... to think the 1st time he made a speech to the team last yr... he was like nervous and stuff... and needed my help.. hahaha those were the good old days hahaah... well he still ask me to sit next to him but he spoke with confidence... well and it made sense lah hahhaah.. me didn't help much... but ivor brought the memories back to me. hahah thr are so many things i forgot man... like times when there was no coach and me ivor and lingli were handling training by ourselves. how i started the training log to keep track of all the training and ivor follow suite. coming out with our own manual. training together everyday juz me and him hahhaha... pumping of the machine which give constant headaches... and our runs at sentosa hahaha i totally forgotten bout them man




well guess the old saying is true...it is not the amount of time u spend with one another... its the things u go thru thick and thin which leave the memories... kind of funny lah cos haven't been meeting ivor for like 5-6 mths... but when we come together... we still can talk like we have seen one another the day b4 man. hahhaha thanx for bringing back all the memories man... nice meeting up with u sandeep, jermey and shermaine these few days.. all started with the ars vs. man u match hahaha...
u guys made my block leave a memorable one. k to sandeep and ivor... take care in army ahh... be strong in heart and nv nv lose wat u believe in cos in the end.. those to hold on to their morales... persevere to the end ultimately earnt he repect and trust of others.
and jeremy n shermaine... hahah thanx for lightening up my life man. all the cock laughters and 'rumbling' at the back of the car.nice to find someone who share the same vulgar lingo. wish both of u all the best yeah and may our paths cross again.

wats sup siah... yest was damn cool... with the band thunderbird playing... chilling at an old man's bar... fun. was wearing my zara clothes for the 2nd time k haven't been wearing those clothes for a long long time.
a lot of nice songs the band played... frank sinatra my way... unchained melody... she's a lady...teresa tang's songs juz make the night rock....

too bad lah... none of us knew how to dance... hahah then i kind of made a fool out of myself with my robotic dancing hahaha.
was round 1245am... minus alastair cos he had to report back to camp in the morning... the rest of us had supper at newton circus. wah lan a long time since i went thr siah hahha. took a few funny photos thr but damn... it didn't turn out macham photos were screwed and thr is no trace of it.
ouch my head still huurt man... for the past3 days/.... shermaine has been pinching my head... spread the virus to jeremy and now i have 2 head pinches on my tail damn it hurts.

but they are nice... corny sweet ppl. k minus jeremy's vulgarities and his cock laughter..
look how sweet they look together hee hee



hahhaa so after supper we say we weren't tired and its like 2+ in the morning...and ivor didn't wana drive to desker... so decided to go sandeep's place to catch irreversible which in my opinion.. the show suck. fell asleep after the orgy part betw the gays. hahah so by the time i reach home was bout 5+ wah my biological clock is really screwed up already man.

so apparently they say NS guys are damn vulgar.
fuck,CB,LCB,KNN, Connet, BOOTok, are like puntuations to every sentence
couldn't even tahan for 1/2hr in front of ivor's parents siah.
all was ok in the house then in the car... wat the fuckjermey make some stupiidremark and out of control man out of control
funny how shermaine and jeremy were humoured by the way i speak. i think i'm a born entertainer OMG
k then cycle up to sempang to meet for prata...was round 12+ whr the cars were scarce and i was speeding on my road bike. i luv the feeling man... feeling u have control over everything... the smell of fresh air which juz simulate freedom speeding pass roads and cutting cross red lights...
been a long time since i felt like this

so i was back at 2+ played a bit of contra for a while. wow after like 10 yrs the game is still an entertainer siah all the way from nintendo... micro genuius to PS2 hahaha.

k man gonna go out get my clothes for my date hee hee

juz woke up siah. yest was quite fruitful... extreme ends of the day... in the morning and wee hrs at night. finally fix my bike.. arghHH so proud of myself.... now i can go riding again. yest night went over to m.satay's house to watch the big game betw man u and arsenal. wah lau lucky man u nv win siah, their defence sucks to the core with fucking horse face neville looking retard in the already irritating angle of highbury stadium, and selvestre make so many mistakes... it takes 6 man to pressure 2 defenders wow! well lorraine can kick himself could have been 2-1 if he didn't hold on the ball for long and pass to the dependable t.henry for the finisher. damn was so close. k not that i'm a arsenal fan but man u would have deserve a booting siah. in my opinion, arsenal played an impressive game yest, broke down man u defence a couple of times, good control of ball and their mid field to goal transition is juz superb but of course its all tailored to t. henry, the man i think will be the fifa's greatest striker this saeson.

disappointed with man u performance they lost it early in the game... even b4.... the confidence in the eng and french men... a fucking big gap.



wah the mud pies were superb hahaha... and we went sempang for supper. woah ivor's driving is no.1 don't have to worry cos he drives with lots of precaution. then went for a car ride hahha jeremy is fucking funny man... if only warick was thr too... thy will bite each other's balls off. went to changi to look at 'business' wat a waste... maybe cos its mon morning... not many trans along the way.

hahah poor shermain have an exam(PR skills) to study. think the exam is tmr good luck wah she got crazy studying habit siah... study at void deck alONE! but place rather cooling though. i luv how her house was done up. think her parents love ship or sth... thr is a room whr thr is a steering wheel, got the ship control thingy damn cool. cosy and nice feel man. thanx for the ice cream man hahaha

so reach home round 4+ concass till 12 now gonna go out liao. need to get present for ivor and go back tp to meet track juniors for a meal. hey sara goh! see i remember all of u don't say i dua u all the time ahhh tsk tsk.

and so 26th march 2004 marks the last day of BMT. scary how time pass. a week break don't really look forward to me wouldn't mind getting posting to new vocation this week. crazy but true.

wasn't really ready to accept the P3 best recruit yest. was close to tears when i did it. close to tears when i shook hands with Lt jamie and 3SG King. last words he said,"take care where ever u go"

things really move very fast yesterday and i was just happy to be the one making it happen. glad to be platoon ic for the last week though i was pai sei now and then for some stupid command mistakes.

found out from company clerk that i will be going sispec... there goes the $1000 pay i look forward to...the greatest honour and pride i want to earn... and fucking hell once again, my path with drew will not cross once again. i will not hide the fact that i was stunned when i heard the news from him. 2nd in company SIT test score of 86%, peer appreser of 98%, average SOC timing of 9.18, good reccomendation from LT Jia Xiong, really didn't expect it siah. maybe its cos of my ippt score, 5 5 5 4 2. sbj will kill my life forever and ever...

maybe its wat they call,'when things keep going wrong and u don't know why, juz call it fate' fate that i have a funny shape body, fate that it rained yest. of all days, it rained yest juz as good as getting aat C this whole week which no one did cos everyone want to pass out with pride, share the feeling of throwing the cap in the air.

after all which happened yest, i am only glad to share the same bus ride with mike( my so called ah beng looking friend) he went back alone, away from friends, family a man juz 2 yrs older than me, but already his maturity is far ahead from the peers i know.
though my meeting with him was brief, he left a great impression in me . he is the guy i mentioned once who uses his pay to settle his motor and family expenses, stand up and defend for himself when time comes.
we talked about SSM(about ssm see 2 days back), when we were in the same tune that we respect him more than other LT, majors and other higher ranks, it started our conversation on other stuff.

he say if i ever come out from OCS, don't expect him to pay compliments to me. i juz smiled, but when i think of why say it now together with many things we talk about yest, i can see a bigger pict now.
we came together to F coy, pass out together... in many ways ppl like him are better in commanding troops, taking pressure, getting things done, and he is close to gold 5 5 5 5 4 juz 2 more sec off his 2.4 timing and he would have gotten it. but yet others may have have a chance to go OCS, even though they are not fit, not as capable... it is juz the results which make a diff. his highest ed is only an O level pass, not that he couldn't study, but he doesn't have the finance, he is too old to differ.sucky but true and i cld juz feel the pain.

and i thought i had encountered the most pissing discrimination, but looking at him, i feel ashamed of myself. cos i had chances, choices which he didn't have. he faced them like a man, make best of wat he has, i didn't.

it is ppl like him which make me humble, distant form ppl whoose mind is juz sex money which is like a rough est of 88% of singaporeans?

perhaps thr is a chance i will see him again, maybe next week, maybe 1 yr later. when i do, i will be the one who will show 'compliments' to him, cos the last 10min tibs bus ride he taught me the essence of of command, humanity, and humbled me which left me telling myself, SISPEC or OCS aim to be the best at whr u are...n most imptly, enforce the words,"rank is wat u salute, respect is wat u muz earn"

wed night was supposedly a 'party' for my platoon. had lots of fun... cake from marriot, canadian pizza, and volka which we disguised in form of mineral water.

while i was at white sands.... i saw a grp of children playing with sparklers... it reminded me of someone... close to my heart, but then things are so different now. i juz saw her 2 weeks back b4 i book in but didn't stop for a chat cos i was late for the bus already...
maybe i didn't want to confront the fact that many things around me have changed and i don't adapt outside my comfort zone... or i have become cinical about many stuff... being observant of everyone's actions... every little thing they do.

life sux when u have so much u want to say but u juz have to hide it...the pain of nth to look forward to...life is dry

i miss the days we sms one another everyday, i miss your chatty voice... how we dance ard on the str without a care of anyone... the chocolate ice cream we love from ck tangs, the walk home... now i juz have memories to hold on to and a wooden frame which hold the words which have integrated in my mind and i reiterate when tides are low

like the tiny sparkles in the night shooting tingles of bright light in the dark when i close my eyes and am lost without a guide, i feel your warmth of friendship and i hear your gay laughter and i am found...

My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady
>>nature,
>>and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.
>>
>>
>> Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have
>>to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him
>>before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.
>>
>>
>>I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a
>>relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a
>>little girl yearning for candy. My husband, is my complete opposite, his
>>lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments
>>into our marriage has disheartened me about love. One day, I finally
>>decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.
>>
>>
>> "Why?" he asked, shocked. "I am tired, there are no reasons for
>>everything in the world!" I answered.
>>
>>
>>He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thought with a
>>lighted
>>cigarette at all times.
>>My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can't
>>even
>>express his predicament, what else can I hope from him?
>>
>>
>>And finally he asked me:" What can I do to change your mind?" Somebody
>>said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I
>>have started losing faith in him
>>
>>
>>Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered : "Here is the question, if
>>you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let's say, I
>>want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are
>>sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for
>>me?"
>>
>>
>>He said :" I will give you your answer tomorrow...." My hopes just sank
>>by
>>listening to his response.
>>I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper
>>with
>>his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table
>>near the front door, that goes....
>>
>>
>>My dear, "I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to
>>explain the reasons further.."
>>
>>
>>This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.
>> "When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs,
>>and
>>you cry in front of the screen, I have to saved my fingers so that I can
>>help to restore the programs.
>>
>>
>>You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to
>>rush home to open the door for you.
>>
>>
>>You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save
>>my eyes to show you the way.
>>
>>
>> You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches every
>>month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your
>>tummy.
>>
>>
>>You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by
>>infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories
>>to
>>cure your boredom.
>>
>>
>>You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your
>>eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip
>>your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also
>>hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine
>>and the beautiful sand... and tell you the colour of flowers, just like
>>the color of the glow on your young face...
>>
>>
>>Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more
>>than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. "
>>
>>
>> My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting...
>>and as I conntinue on reading...
>>
>>
>>"Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied,
>>please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your
>>favorite bread and fresh milk...
>>
>>
>> I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching
>>tightly
>>with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread....
>>
>>
>>Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and
>>I
>>have decided to leave the flower alone...
>>
>>
>>That's life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of
>>excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in
>>between the peace and dullness.
>>
>>
>>Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has
>>never
>>been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form.. . flowers, and
>>romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the
>>relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands... and
>>that's
>>our life...

juz yest my PC crack a joke with the platoon which was funny at first but left me pondering over things for a while

juz after field camp, my good friend ken came back with a swell up head which looks like a luo han

so PC brought him to see the medic

after examination for 20min, the medic replied,"wah nv seen sth like this b4"

so PC ask," so wat happened to him"

medic replied,"oh his head is swollen"

yeah it tickle our funny bone... but in reality, most singaporeans are like the medic, we fail to think b4 we talk or nv think at all.

1. Q: How do you confuse a mat (a malay guy)?
A: Put them in a round room, and say, "Relak one corner brudder!" (coz whenever you're uptight about something, that's what they always tell you)

2. Q: How do you make an indian explode?
A: Press the red dot on their foreheads.

what comes after is gonna be VERY racist...please do not read if you are anti-racist!!! or else, you bear the consequences, and don't flame me since i gave ample warning...

3. Q: What's the difference between an indian and a pail of shit?
A: The pail.

4. Q: How long can an indian woman keep shit in her?
A: 9 months

k this entry came in late... celebrate drew's b day on sat... well wasn't really a celebration more like a meet up over cakes and dinner. hope u like your blink 182 cd man. well this yr only me and xuan... hahha but then better than last yr when we nv meet up at all.
well 19 already...this one yr form my perspective, the many things which happened in your life have made u stronger.the many shit i feel which happened to u like rs betw u and your mom, your aunt and many other ups and downs have sub consiously make u more mature.

thanx for always been there for me... treating me as a friend sharing with me your probs as well cos it always leaves me pondering over stuff and makes me think about life, and the time we studied at the library, cartel talk cock over a drink at simei bk during the long stretch of phy papers is sth to remember
well sometimes u tell me about how slack u are... how sometimes u fell guilty for taking credits of others....well juz as we each have our own flaws... i feell the diff betw u and others is that u know wat u want, find out wat is wrong and in many ways... u are more independent than many of us.
for these many reaons... i am not surprosed when u told me about your impressive performance in the field camp and the army. well all this fine traits u possess have make u shine above the rest.
hahha so the soon to be 2nd LT Woo DA Hua i will soon have to salute to u. k do take care yeah... don't forget to meet up for dinners and runs hhahaha... k do take care




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so i didn't do as well as i wanted.... happy to hit half of my targeted results.... sad part is that the other half was way off from wat i wanted.

k obtained a B3 for GP and A for maths... good? 2 subs i have i been having nightmare since pri2.

backtrack:
lower pri grades were in banding... i remembered the very day my eng got a band2... 78 back then... it was sucky cos the rest of the class will be scoring 1... after that yr my results for eng statred to slip and slip... didn't really bother don't remember why. had lots of tuition for that sub which i think is quite dumb... how do u improve your language with more assessments???

maths was gross during pri sch... i will always be bottom in class i can't count for nuts... and sci... i think i give my teacher nightmare... i got round 50+odd for my pri sch sci..haha but shcokingly i scrap thru pri sch with A* for maths, sci and chi... and my eng remained at an A.

sec sch was even more jia lat... failed my sec 2 final yr only managed to get to tripple sci class cos in vs back then in the good old days whr by our sci sub Os results were the best in singapore(till the batch b4 me and my batch and the later batches broke this fine tradition), its compulsory to take 3 sci unless u take mep aep that kind of stuff.

by prelims my sci results were colourful rojak named failure, B4 for chem, C5 for phy and D7 for bio(nv passed bio b4)

but cos of passion to the sch,(no one score lower thanB4 for bio b4) peer pressure since i wanted to join friends in VJ... i really studied and escape with str A2 for all 3 sub.

so with these results in TPJC, ppl will think your sci muz be damn zai... well apparently not. my mole concept is only a level above the depth of a singaporean who knows PCK inside out. today i still don't know many many concepts siah k so i suck in As... luck ran out for me siah... C for Phy a D for chem

is GP impt??? hahahah whenever ppl say their reults, i notice they either leave GP at the last or they juz don't say at all.
well to me to get good grades in Maths, Chi(even though the fucked up governement or whoever juz scraped it after we have taken the exam which i think is absolutely dumb) and GP is more of a concern to me. well not cos i did well in them but i think they they are the only sub which i will use in daily life. who the hell will start a conversation with," do u know the way magnetic induction work?" a new pick up line for geeks.

was lucky enough to get a good mentor for chi back in jc... chee boon taught me the art of appreciation for chi. and external help for Gp... k so i took tuition again. but this one was more of cos i find the class entertaining and at the same time mind intriguing.the teacher herself is a jc tutor at present and is wat i will call a bimbo lah. damn pretty and smart, round 33 but can still keep figure and looks... i'm impressed man. she was the one who brought the world of Tai tai to me... tint hair at colourhouse... coffee bean and pasta mania is for cannot make it ah huays... TM country club has the richest and glamorous ppl though its the most run down... and the students are damn enteratining as well. of all, i remember this gal call sally who is wat i call a singapore high achiever. k i will say that her thoughts are narrow... but ppl listens to her juz as well cos she has the kind of charismatic personality which catches attention.. damn i want that too man. so she is going to pursue a cooking degree at havard... watch out for her name in the newspapers soon man. so GP was interesting, facts, lang and stuff were absorbed faster. for someone who has prob for lang right from the start... manage to fine tune it in 1 yr... i'm satisfied with my results already.

i juz bought a PS2 for $488 which comes with
2 controllers
1 8mb card
a dust prevention cover
10 games

uncle muz be grinning from side to side earning a total of$488 times 7 of us.k happens that last week at camp i was intrigued by a PS2 mag.. and i thought i was the only swa koo."u mean u can do this and this..." yes i'm PS2 illiterate...then ken ask,"hey who wants to buy PS2 i got lobang" wah then round 10+ppl interested... but then 3 pulled out cos of not satisfied A level results.


juz 2 weeks back... me bought a panasonic cd player.... i buy at least one cd or vcd every week... juz 3 mths back bought a cam corder... biggest bomb of $1299 and me thought will take a long time to recover from the spending,but apparently not... and the day b4 i bought my ps2.... i lost my HP and purchased a sony erricsonT610.


some ppl ask,"whr the hell the money come from"
my reply,"the plus pt of not having a girlfriend"

hahah not sure how much... but then i think i spend very little on others... well still got lah but very little.

and cos of my stingy diet this few yrs... eat tuna for recess.. eat home make chicken breast sandwich for lunch cos of health consious reason i thinks thr's whr my savings came from

sad but true... apparently i'm on a spending spree this yr so much so that i decided to surrender my atm cards and stuff to mom hahaha juz to make sure i start to save again.

back to PS2!!!!