i am now looking thru the videos... thinking of wat to put in the wing's video... hard process. and listening to the song achieve i have... wow infernal affaris has lots of great songs... listen if u can.

as i loook thru the video... i realise a significant change in many ppl this 4 mths. of course our hair get longer :)... for me i was shock to see a great diff in my looks... look better??? shrugss*

alpha wing and the rest of their cohort commisioned on sun... as they threw their pick cap into the hair... i could almost feel the sense of joy and tears they muz be feeling at that time. if u have the chance.. u muz really catch the parade.. they say its the third best after national day and saf day. it marks the end of 10 mths training... it also means a new beggning in a another chapter in our army life.

lta justin told me that all smooth sailings turn to a dubious ocean the day u throw the prick cap into the air.juz as it flys high in the sky... it reaches its peak and makes its way down... no chnace of turning back... and in a crude way.. shit start dropping on u. how true... i won't know. but i will rather be in training all my life... cos i think its only here that u get to commit mistakes and learn from thr..,. like LTA jonathon says... the motto of tango wing is its easier to seek for forgiveness than permission.. do sth first if u think its right... but always be accountable for your actions when things go wrong... this is the only way to promote creativity. well said.

so in juz 4 mths... in my term in tango wing and venture on my own..
i learn about trust..
wat i want in life
the importance of foundation,
social skills like creating spontaneous interaction among ppl, create creativity...and many more

i feel i have learn alot about myself... and in short.. i learn about life.i was walking down orchard road juz last week and someone along the str ask me wat is my interpritation of a portratit he carries in his hands. its a peaceful baby cuddling in a bed of roses...some in their bud, some bearing its beautiful flowers.. some withering up.... i say it depicts life....the wide exciting future waiting for us to venture in.

you will probably be thinking why i'm bloggig so much in camp nowadays.. well its time of the term again when everything coming to the end... everyone else slacking in the bunk while i have to settle the wing's video. well to me its not a chore even though it can become frustrating at time... cos of the shortage of time.

its more like a hobby now... to be thw ing's video man... running aeround taking videos.... kind of glad that LTC COL tan gave me the chance to do so... its a job less than 50 in singapore will be doing and i will soon be on the 'most wanted' list to join osama.

and it really helps in improving my video taking skill...didn't realise till xuan told me... maybe cos she remembers the time her head will go giddy cos my cam will go all over the shop... but not anymore hahah. its not easy u know...the angle, how to use the surrounding and ppl, thats why i don't trust the rest with my cam, not that i'm a scrooge but they nv seem to take the essential elements.perhaps this comes with exp... like forest tells me that i can't take still picts for nuts.

gonna go for my last assignment soon.. today is platoon live firing which also marks the end of all the program in ST2.. and my video taking days will take its leave and become another fond memory of my army days.

i read this in senior ong's blog which i think is very true and sth close to my heart...esp at this stage of our lives when many of us question about trust.


'I hear from my friends in the Commandos that when you jump off the plane in the sky, not only you don't have time to pee, you don't have time to think of anything but just enjoy the view and trust in your parachute. If you don't have the trust, you may panic and fumble, and the parachute may never be released on time properly.

Its very strange when you think about trust. It's just a feel in your heart. It's not even in your head because it cannot be in your head. When it is in your head, it tends to become logic. And when it becomes logic, you start to think with your head again and then things start to become complicated and imbalance because you are thinking of right or wrong, good or bad, left or right. So in the example of a parachuter, he cannot trust with his head because the head is thinking why the hell are you jumping from 50000km above sky. But when he has trust in his heart, he will let go and enjoy the fall, knowing that things would be alright. It is this sense of knowing that is extremely difficult to accomplish. But once done, it feels brighter than enlightment and more serene than your own peace'

how to celebrate mel's B day

steps:
1.buy her present which was only prepared 1 hr b4 giving to her
apparently me and xuan were arguing on the plastic bag to give her... and i didn't tear away the price tag

2.get a bunch of roses... from the friendly bedok neighbourhood store, $12 for 7 blue roses which were nicely wrapped up with the deco. and stuff.

3.eat dinner at saint angus restaurant which is at singapore river... near clifford pier.. too bad it was raining or we will be eating by the sea. wat a meal... a 1/4 pound of medium beef... with garden salad,a garlic bread which i make a fool of myself out of it... how will i know right... that the bread is to be tear into pieces using hands... and not using the fork and knife ahahaha thr is also a mud pie.. delicious man...oreo kind of base... ice cream body and hot chocolate on top of it.. shuiok man.

4.a walk along singapore river, to vch and then to raffles city then to esplanade. hahah wat a walk.bring back memories as i walk the path.. the familiar path i took when i had my first choir concert thr,.. my first SYF finals thr... how yrs back... a grp of us were walking along lim bo seng memorial after midnight cos of the packing up to do and kiat was freak out.that palce always bring back fond memories.. how i mature and think along the years definitly goes along with the ageing of that place. made our way to esplanade... cos i wanted to see the portraits of that singaporean guy... see earlier post... but in the end land up buying present for xuan.. cos her troy poster was sold thr... its in jap some more.. quite surprised to find it thr though.

5. 10.45pm and i'm shag out already... have to buy more time b4 xuan comes... think mel was also thinking wat we gonnna do next. told her we gonna watch movie at 12+ and shucks... bugis closes early man.. 10+ and its so quiet liao.. went all the way to bugis hawker for supper... but da bp leng ball stall close... had to settle for rojak.

6. met up with xuan at last who was surprisingly still so alive after flying from bukit timah to tanah merah and back to bugis. gosh man.. mel was touched.. at least our effort was worthwhile.

sidetrack; the show suck. house of flying daggers is a fighting cum pon movie... zhang ziyi got raped 6 times... and i think that andy lau and jin cheng wu chracter suck lah... they take 5 min to struggle with her and only manage to take off and tear her scarf.
5 stars... maybe cos of the effect plus the blend with surrounding which is naturally zhang yi mou's trade mark.

7.muz have friends like me and xuan who squeeze out time, juz to be the first to wish her happy b day.

juz came back from ex. POI which stands for protection of installation, the mlost fun field camp of all... which also marks the last camp will ever have in ST2. hahhaha time flies man.

my friend soon tat got an offer for log. officer... wah lau at first it seems slack lah ahh... but think of it minus off the want to have pride and honour, they teach sth useful which many vocation do not for eg ... i will learn how to tidy my room...short term...get more lobangs in the business world which is a long term thingy, hahaah crap..but i really wish i have the chance to become one... but like the song goes...dream on... dream on... dream on... k time for 5 BX.

next book on my list... hahah have been reading a lot of books lately... maybe bored... but think its a real good use of time
 

 
saw this very cool book in the shelf of library today. lots of photos in it... containing thoughts of the artist... shd take a look at it if u can get hold of the book
 

 
The next book on my list... hahah have been reading a lot of books lately... wait for the review yah
 
 
 
 
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i juz happen to dig out some of my old guitar stuff to playl... then i saw some of the choir scores... photos lying around. hhahha has been a long time since i revisited the past.
 
gonna go back into camp soon... hahah now trying to dig out a list of wat to bring out of camp for the weekend.mel's birthday is coming... hahhaha i really hope her stay in the bunk will not turn out to be a nightmare.... i think she is really insane to bunk in with soimeone she kind of hates.
 
so this is a list of things me and xuan are going to get her
 
1. ear plugs
2. eye packs
3. soothing music for her to listen in case that certain person start bringing someone back and u know...
4.insect repellent
5. mirror...well decorated with words of encouragement
 
wonder wat i missed out....
 
anyway i really miss my viewcam... i suddenly see a purpose with it... maybe absense make the heart fonder... hahhaha k but i really hope i will get it back in one piece.

I am having a viral oinfection this week. nice mo after sending me to hospital gave me a long break at home.
 
I went back to college for a while on wed to wish the track ppl good luck. hahah its the time of the yr again, comp pressure. oh well too bad none of my sweet juniors are running this week. i would have been on this week if it was a yr ago.. this week was the 800m race.
 
but things are diff now... hahaha like nth to say to the gals even though we used to be so close... in the end end up talking cock with my rival chen wei hahaah. he finallly got hair... he scored FOE for his mids... told him to be more friendly... then maybe he would have gotten better grades.
 
then saw mrs evelyn tan ... hahah she thought i was li ren from far and waved at me... it was only later then she realise... yah hoh since when li ren so short. hahhahah.. if that is not enough...the rock climbers ran towards me... apparently they were placing bet with one another cos they too mistook me for li ren.
 
k man my so called twin bro is too good for me liao... how can compare me with a good looking and talented commando???